I recently finished the book, Becoming, by Michelle Obama. Tracing back to her childhood, she was no special than any other kids living in South Side Chicago. Her dad was a city water plant employee, and her mom stayed home taking care of the family. Her high school counsellor never thought she was “Princeton material” and nudged her to think about safer options. But she insisted on forming a path herself regardless of all possible constraints surrounding her.
This book was the story about Michelle Obama, about how she defined her own path, about what made she become who she is today. The more I read, the stronger I felt that this was also a story for every one of us who are independent, ambitious, sometimes naive, but never give in too easily when it comes to our dreams. Many of the struggles she mentioned in the book, I’ve experienced those too. And the book, at times, put me back to my memories and had me reflect on what I could have done to make things better.
I personally like the first half of the book better as it was more “down-to-earth”. It was a vivid capture of what an ordinary young person (more specifically, in her case, a girl right out of school) would see, think, and do in their twenties. The latter half of the book was more about her life as wife of a politician and First Lady. It was interesting to read for sure, but it just didn’t resonate with me as strongly as it did in the first half.
Michelle was already an accomplisher in her twenties – a polished, bright, young lawyer working in a prestigious law firm. Given her performance in the firm, there wouldn’t be much surprise for her to become partner in her early thirties. While from time to time, she had this doubt in mind whether this was the kind of life she wanted, and whether she was doing the right thing for herself.
In her diary, she wrote, “I feel very confused about where I want my life to go. What kind of person do I want to be? How do I want to contribute to the world?” She told her mom that she wasn’t happy with the job but worried about not making enough money if she quitted.
Her mom gave her a piece of advice –
“If you are asking me, I say make the money first and worry about your happiness later.”
This was such a practical advice. I could totally imagine it coming from a mom who sincerely cared about her kid’s life and future but not from an indifferent colleague. There have been so many sayings around “oh, why bother, just follow your heart”. But what are the impacts out of those unthoughtful decisions? The world is cruel, and we couldn’t just expect the best but not preparing for the worst.
This reminded me of another article I read about key characteristics of a successful person. It said that it was always easy to come up with the “why don’t I just quit” idea, but we should hold on to it and be cautious in exercising it. The impulse to quit can come from a lot of factors. It can simply be that we just don’t like the job we are doing. But more often, it’s because we haven’t worked hard enough and done things well enough. We came across challenges, we failed, and it didn’t make us feel good. And that’s why we wanted to quit. With this mindset, no matter how many times we “switched gears”, we still wouldn’t be happy because all we did was just to avoid the failures.
Her mom was right, although she was a bit too blunt. What she was saying, in a more polished way, was that the road to success comes with bitterness, and there will be times you really want to quit. But just hold on a little bit longer and work a little bit harder until you establish yourself and become one of the best in the field (or simply get more money out of it). And then, so many more opportunities will open up for you.
So Michelle listened to her mom’s advice and worked for a couple more years before she eventually quitted and had a smooth transition to a position in city mayor’s office where she started to have significant impact onto the public sector, onto everybody’s daily life.
After Barack Obama entered the politics world, his schedule became packed and unpredictable. Their life became financially better, but Michelle suffered. In this not-to-different-from-long-distance relationship, Michelle was frustrated every time he texted “be right home” and didn’t arrive until two hours later, she was disappointed every time he broke the promise and couldn’t come to family gatherings. She knew that her husband was no longer to herself but also to the city, state and even the nation. But as a wife, a mom, she was not happy and felt lost at this unbalanced relationship.
Their marriage was at one point at the brink of divorce. And she decided to give it one last try and found them a marriage counsellor. Not giving them any concrete solutions, the counsellor granted them a space to be honest with each other and share their thoughts as well as feelings.
The counseling made Michelle realized that she didn’t have to tailor her whole life towards her husband’s, which would likely result in frustration, desperate, irritation once she found that she couldn’t take hold of her husband’s schedule. She could totally set the schedule herself without being too attached to the uncertainties from her husband’s side. She started to set the schedules for their dinner time, the girls’ bed time, and her own activities. It was no longer about whether Michelle could catch Barack for family events, but more the other way around, about whether Barack could catch theirs.
Michelle set a great model of how to become an independent person herself while still being a loving mom and caring wife. When Obama worked in the senate and started to have an office in D.C., Michelle decided to stay out of this and refused to move to D.C. with him, although it did make more sense for them to both move to D.C. and have more time together as a family. She had a job in Chicago and the two girls went to school in the city. Moving out meant leaving everything behind in Chicago and becoming a stay-home mom taking care of the family. That was not what she aspired to do, and she hoped to still have a little kingdom to herself where she could see her values shine.
These were all big decisions, and Michelle handled them well. Their marriage made it through the crazy travels and campaigning, and she made it to have her own achievement in the field she loved.
Being an independent woman and having a successful marriage/ family, Michelle demonstrated to us that we can stay greedy and have them both.
Also from that article about success, a successful person usually has almost too much self-belief. “Almost too much”, I laughed while reading this, but it was true. Having a little bit more faith in ourselves and our life partner will give us such precious encouragement to just give things a try. We will never know whether it will eventually work out if we don’t bother trying it out, right?